When I was in elementary school, a boy came up to me during break. He’d been playing soccer with his friends and the ball went sideways somehow, and ended up near me. He went after it to get it back, but stopped next to me. I was reading. I did that every break, just like he played soccer every break.

I noticed him standing there, but didn’t say anything. When he didn’t seem to be moving anytime soon, I looked at him.

He was staring at me. I stared back.

“Why are you reading all the time?” he said.

I thought it was a stupid question, so I probably sounded a bit annoyed when I asked him: “Why do you play soccer all the time?”, expecting him to get angry or make fun of me.

But the boy, I’ve forgotten his name or never knew it anyways, just tilted his head a bit. He nudged the ball with the tip of his foot, then kicked it back to the other boys. “Mhm. Okay,” he said, and ran off.

He didn’t do anything extraordinary. We didn’t become friends, we didn’t talk again and I can’t even remember his face. All he did was to say okay.

Maybe that’s all we can do sometimes; saying okay even when we don’t understand.

Change doesn’t mean that it’ll get better.

There is no almighty prophecy of good times. Maybe there won’t be the light at the end of the tunnel that you’ve been promised over and over. And possibly, you won’t even get a glimpse of what you hoped for.

Change is just a chance. Nothing more, and oh, take this one to heart: certainly no less.

Sure winter will pass someday. But in the meantime, I’d rather learn to bend the snow and its storms than sit and wait for summer.

And the season shall be yours to shape.

Are you day or night? they ask me sweetly
Are you silver or gold? they want to know
Storm or silence, they nudge none-gently
Earth or sea, where do you grow

Come on, you have to decide, it’s easy either
Or never nor
But never as
Well as – so, go ahead
We must know
Only one
Can be yours
Can be true and can be you

I ask back I ask why
We need to know
Because all life
Means one thing is not another
Either sister none or brother

So I say yes
And I say no
Since oh you see those wicked souls
Are sometimes
Neither
Both

I don’t believe in “tea time” because that implies that there was a point in history where tea has not been appropriate or on time and I will not stand for such nonsense.

You should honestly be so grateful for having yourself in your life. Imagine the opposite. How strange! Really, that would just be terrible. Because after all, where would you be without yourself?

And for god’s sake, don’t call me beautiful. I don’t care if you argue and yell and try to screw it deep into my brain, because I am not and I won’t waste time pretending to believe you. Let me be as I am. Let my appearance be that randomization of genes that it is. I am not pretty. I am not gorgeous. My looks don’t light up the world. My skin won’t take your breath.

I am average or below or I don’t care where in that area, and I will not care just because you try to make me.

Don’t call me beautiful. I’m not, haven’t been, won’t be.

If you do want to get your breath stolen, ask about my mind.