maggins:

oKAY so today is moami’s (the very amazing author of Nightglow) birthday and contrary to my initial predictions i had a little time to whip something up for your birthday sO YEAH have a starry-floaty-marco-baby (ノ∴◕ヮ◕∴)ノ*:・゚✧ i haven’t known you for very long but oH GOSH you’re the sweetest bby and deserve everything nice in the world ;v;

I squealed for about 5 minutes after seeing this. then i tried to breathe, failed miserably and slumped into my chair while waILING ABOUT THIS BEAUTY. maggins is such a talented artist and if you ever talk to her, you’ll see what a real swEET human being is. this is beyond everything I expected. his lil floating butt, the perfect colours blending into each other. and his WINGS. just.
Everything. Thank you so much, darling. I seriously love you <3♥♥

msrenai21:

Starchild!Marco from moami’s fic Nightglow

hehe this is also her birthday gift! I hope your birthday is as awesome as you are >w<

So let me tell you about msrenai21. //SMOOCHES YOU

She’s got such talent, just look at that stunning present I got for my 21st birthday. I saw it on twitter first and just stARED for a solid three minutes, took in all of the picture’s features. She did my starchild!Marco so so much justice – babe, you’re so good to me.

Thank you, thank you a thousand times ♥ I’ll cherish this with my heart, and I am so grateful that Nightglow inspired you to this art.

Level 5 || (Happy Birthday, Q!)

This is a birthday present for the wonderful quartetship.! She is a brilliant writer and capable to turn me into a crying mess with a mere paragraph (also great at smut).

Darling, happy birthday. You are such a great person and being friends with you is more than I could wish for ❤ I hope this makes you as happy as I was when you helped me through sad times. Enjoy!

sfw | Jeanmarco | fantasy, sci-fi

Level 5

They came in bullet-proof cars with dark windows.

A truck drove between them, the smaller cars stuck to its sides like flies to a rotting carcass, sucking up the last body heat radiating from sweetly squelching flesh. The newspapers would write about the “tragic incident” tomorrow, and neighbours would remember how men jumped out of the cars, men with long black coats, led by a tall blond and a grumpy looking… boy?

Kasken Alley was swept empty, all civilians barricaded inside their homes. The police had given alarm, a “Sleeper” had woken up, and so the dubious men had been called. The Sleeper’s power had apparently burnt half a . The inhabitants had fled outside and were standing in the dripping rain, water streaming down their stricken faces in thin lines. They were the Sleeper’s family.

It was eight o’clock in the morning.

Levi wrote down all information the family had, pen and notepad hovering next to his face, expression immobile. His coat stuck tight to his legs and back, like he was drowned in glue. He wrung as many words as possible from them, until the little girl started crying again and whimpered, “Wh-what happened to my b-brother?” and clutched her mother’s skirt, tiny fingers curling into bloody fabric.

Before Levi could reply, Erwin called him from inside, voice bellowing. “Levi! I need you here. Now.”

The notepad flew after him when the man whirled around and stalked inside, his coat billowing out under a sharp breeze and pattering rain. He entered the house with a few strong steps, sniffed the air – blood, lots of it. What a fucking disaster. At least the stairs were still usable. The first floor had a lot of busted windows and broken doors, but was, all in all, still accessible.

“To your left,” he heard Erwin’s voice.

Levi followed it, the gun in his hand unlocked and quivering only slightly.

This was a Level 4 at least, strong enough to vaporize the entire street in one go, and they still had no clue what had even happened.

How he or she would be classified, whatever the powers that were had thrown at them, waited behind a room with a green door. Erwin stood in front of it, his fingers melted into the wood, feeling for any waves or heartbeats from inside. His palms rested against the hard surface, but the fingertips were swimming on top of it, stirring gently and catching the high-pitched sound from inside.

Someone was crying. Erwin glanced at him. His ears twitched, and he pulled his fingers out. The wood cracked and returned to its former state.

“What do we have?” Levi leaned next to him, pressed his own ear to the door, waited for any noises. But, of course, his senses weren’t nearly as good as Erwin’s, so he just listened. Erwin blinked and sighed, deep and disappointed.

“My, my. It seems all the blood around here is his own. He must have hurt himself. A young man, and I’d bet he’s a Transformed. I’ve been trying to get him out for a solid fifteen minutes now.” Erwin knocked softly against the door, knuckles sharp and white, contrasting with the dark green.

“Now, will you please let us in? We aren’t here to hurt you-”

Go away!” What a sound, Levi thought, so little and weeping.

“Last chance to open up, brat.” Erwin didn’t object to his words, staying silent; so he had called Levi to bomb the door free.

As expected, the sobbing voice returned a “No! Leave me alone!”, followed by scrabbling, nails scratching the floor.A window broke.

They wouldn’t go, wouldn’t jump through such a high window. Erwin stepped aside and carded his fingers through Levi’s hair, warming his neck with his big palm flattening on the pale skin. The sign to start. Levi gritted his teeth and flicked his fingers in a short gesture – and the air vibrated. The door unhinged, a loud metallic sound thundered through the walls, and then the door flew across the corridor, crashed into the wall, and cracked into a thousand pieces.

“We’re coming in now. Don’t be afraid, we’re here to fuckin’ help you,” Levi shouted and rolled his head around, the joints in his shoulders creaking a warning from underneath pale flesh. Help wasn’t always accepted gladly.

“That’ll calm him down, definitely,” Erwin remarked, sarcasm a thin layer on his words. Levi shot him a glare, and the door’s ruins behind them quivered from crown to foot for a last time before the whole pile sank into itself and whirled up in a cloud of dust and wood splinters. His rage was dimmed after so many years, but there was still a trace of the old beast left in him. That boy should just – Erwin’s hand slid down his back, wrapped around his waist for a second – a kiss to his shoulder, and wild shudders drew a sigh from Levi’s mouth. After a few moments, Erwin let him go.

“It’s okay, don’t get mad. Let me do it, you wait here. I think I can talk him through this.”

“Whatever.” Levi whirled around, slumping against the wall opposite of the door, eyes squinting in silver slits and resting on Erwin. “I’ll come if you call,” he said, breath fast.

Erwin merely nodded back. His full attention was on the empty doorframe. A second, and his body moved, a wave of strength rolling forward and entering the void behind. Levi clenched his fists and pulverized the pile of wood. The planks shivered under his power and broke, splinters stuck in the walls by sheer force, and then everything imploded in a cloud of dust. Levi blew it away, out of the window and into the bright morning sky.

Hurry,” he said to no one.

——————

Marco felt everything.

One hour past – an eternity away – he’d been woken up by an ear-shattering scream.

It wasn’t even a single voice that burst the thin membrane out of his ears and splattered it in blood and cartilage all across the outer shell and his jaw.

No, it was a choir of hundred of sounds, some the loudest thunder, roaring inside his mind and making his fingers vibrate and clack against the bed frame. It was the sound of screeching, nails across a blackboard, birds chirping in spring and the wild blustering of a waterfall; dogs barking, screams of agony from humans long dead, and above it all, the deafening beat of his own heart.

“What-”

Marco hadn’t even gotten the chance to cry out and cover his ears – the rest had started.

Every single one of his five senses was on fire.

All of Marco’s memories flew in front of his eyes, and he squeezed them shut when his skin began to crawl. He felt the moment where he broke his arm as a kid again. The howl when he had stepped on the neighbour’s dog’s tail. His first kiss, first night spent with another boy, all the sex at once. His tongue screeched in pain when the taste of iced tea and spaghetti mixed together and nearly broke his brain in half. That was when Marco wanted to laugh.

He didn’t hear how the walls went black from his eyes ripping open, didn’t smell the nauseating scent of a thousand meals being poured into his room. Marco was caught in his own head, and the ability that had been slumbering inside him for years took over.

Erwin entered the room just in time.

Marco had hit the bottom of his fear, had screamed himself hoarse while hitting the floor with closed fists. He had tried everything to keep his senses from going insane – had scratched his skin raw and bloody at some places, his tongue a thick swollen mess from biting on it, and he’d pressed both palms so firmly to his eyes that they were red-rimmed, tears dried into salt along his nose and temples, smeared by his trembling fingers.

“You’re Marco, right?” Erwin began, looking around. The boy was curled up and panting, eyes empty and cried out from tears. The room was a mess, walls painted with black sludge, wood destroyed, his desk a pile of dirt and pulverized furniture dusted across the boy’s private objects. A lonely football rolled from under the bed and stopped at Erwin’s foot.

Marco didn’t say anything.

He didn’t even care anymore if those men took him. Did he hurt them – his family? His little sister, that angel of a girl, had he drawn blood from her tiny body? And the desperation clogged Marco’s chest, he broke into another long, pained cry. His body shook. New tears spilled from his eyes and dripped down. The noise in his head hadn’t stopped. Neither had the pictures flooding his vision, like a fog clouding over his reality.. Erwin swam in a sea of memories mirrored back at Marco – his childhood, paintings he did for school – and then other people in their houses, waking up and going to work. Their laughter was a thundering drum rhythm in his ears.

A million ants crawled up his spine and bit simultaneously into his flesh, teeth twisting and turning and theyeatmealive

“We’ll take you with us. You have the right to remain silent and leave the Academy after two days of examination and classification. You are allowed to get a lawyer to assist you. No physical or psychological harm will be inflicted on you, unless we have to restrain you when you attempt to hurt others. Do you understand that, Marco?”

Erwin and Levi had said the words two hundred times between the two of them. The shorter man pushed himself off the wall and strolled inside, grimacing at the mess. “What a fuckin’ disaster. Oh, that him? Young.”

“He can’t hear you,” Erwin said, his voice a rumble in the chaos. He squatted down, felt Marco’s forehead. The boy had finally blacked out, eyes blank, the movie of his inner vision still running. Erwin shook his head, shoulders bowed.

“I guess we’ll have to use the truck after all?” For once, Levi spoke quietly, his rage was locked up with heavy chains around his heart. Seeing Erwin like this broke something. When the tall man lifted himself up, his face had heavy lines around his mouth and a hood to his blue eyes.

“Yes, tell them to prepare the metal inside. Bring the earmuffs and the… the eye drops. I’ll need you to stay inside with him, to let him float.”

“Wait.” Levi grabbed Erwin’s shoulder, stared up at him, shock darkening his eyes. That wasn’t – no. “Do you think… do you mean that he’s…?”

“I’m afraid so.” Erwin shook his head at the tiny figure on the floor before picking Marco up. “Tell his parents he won’t come home for some time, and that their son is a Level 4 at least.”

Levi nodded and watched as Erwin pressed the boy to his chest and brought him down the stairs. He followed behind, tucking his gun away and giving the guards waiting outside a curt hand gesture.

They were leaving now. Marco’s mother broke into tears when her son was carried out, body lifeless and eyes open and empty. His father let out a string of curses about the Academy and life and fate, and the little girl – oh, she was the worst. Levi looked at her and tried to smile before he got into the truck with Marco. Erwin had laid the boy down on a barrow, but Levi snarled and lifted him up immediately.

“You can’t just take him like that!”

“You monsters, you… you fuckin’ freaks!”

In the end, they were always angry. Levi heard the truck’s door slam shut behind him. Of course they were taking him away, idiots, did they want Marco to bomb away their whole house? That boy was burning inside, the pain eating all his senses alive.

Levi heard Erwin bellow a command. The truck roared, and Levi sat down on the floor to keep himself from falling. Holding up Marco was difficult enough, and after some time on the road with wheels making idle noises below him, only dimmed by the metal cage he sat in, Levi closed his eyes and focused entirely on the storming mess of Marco before him.

 ———————

The second awakening was softer and accompanied by silence. Thick and cottony, it pressed into his ears and filled the emptiness inside that had rung with noise. It felt strange, artificial almost. The usual dripping of sounds was gone, but so was the horrifying terror of foreign voices in his head. Marco groaned, licked his lips, and decided that the taste of salt was too weak to be blood. What… what happened to him? His parents, a memory flashed inside his head, and Marco’s eyes ripped open.

You’re safe now.”

“That’s what bad people say,” Marco replied and tried to turn his head to the voice that broke his beautiful silence. But how – where did it come from? Oh – he was looking, seeing again, his whole vision filled by a blank white ceiling. A blank white room, only marked by the few screws in the walls where metal plates had been plucked together to build a barricade against whatever.

The voice spoke up again.  Was it the man who had come to get him?

You are safe, Marco. Do you remember what happened at your house?

“No,” Marco said quietly and bit his lip, blinking at the white ceiling and furrowing his brows. The voice sighed.

We thought so. Well, your family is alright and at best health. You, however, are a danger to the outside world and yourself, so we brought you here.

When Marco didn’t reply, the man continued with a stricter tone and a hint of soothing sing-song. Marco didn’t pay any attention; the certainty that his family was safe and sound, that they were unharmed – it flooded his system, blood rushing into his heart and pounding faster, happier. His little sister was safe, thank God.

My name is Erwin Smith, and you are at the Academy. Do you know what that is?

Of course he knew. Marco had to laugh. Being here was ridiculous.

“Yeah, sure. This is where the freaks go-” Marco shifted. Something was off.

He didn’t feel anything, contrary to earlier where his world had turned into a chaotic maelstrom of screeching voices and colourful pictures confusing his eyes. Marco looked around again, craned his head up and down. The room was large, the ceiling too high, and the floor was – oh God.

Don’t worry. You’re floating right now, but you won’t drop. Levi is keeping you in the air so you aren’t overstimulated again.”

Marco choked on his own spit, swallowed it down in a large gulp. He remembered now. Two men, standing in his room, large and quiet the first, blond hair flashing through his vision. The other small, almost delicate, but Marco knew that it had been his movements, his strength that had bombed his door into a thousand wooden pieces.

“What…” He had so many questions. Why, how, what, and then why again, that was most important. “Why did I… do all of this? Am I going insane? Is this, is this an asylum or some shit? Do you take freaks here and euthanize them?!”

That wasn’t taught in school.

They learned that some people had special abilities, and that everyone had a different level. If you were a Level below 2, you could live in peace and have a normal life. That included people who could change their skin colour, or vary the length of their hair, tiny things that were more fun than serious business. Level 3 people were also free to have their own lives, but the Academy checked on them constantly, watching whether their power was in control or not.

Level 4 and 5 had to go to a place called Academy, and were supposedly brought under control there. The school books stopped at that point.

You aren’t going insane. You are gifted with a strength that has broken out tonight. I’m sorry,” Erwin sighed. Marco flinched when the voice in his head grew louder. How the hell had he got inside his mind – no, listening was more important. Getting out of here, finding a way this horror could be ended –

But we have to keep you here until you’re back under control-

Marco didn’t hear how he started to scream when the room was opened and someone entered. He didn’t hear how Erwin roared for Levi to let Marco down and close everything again, and he didn’t hear the name thrown into his cage via loudspeakers.

Jean, you have to-”

“Chill. I got this.”

That Marco heard and he was absolutely sure that whoever this person was, they definitely had nothing under control. The door this guy had opened – definitely a guy, his loud steps vibrated in Marco’s head and told about his body’s weight and height -, that damn door had let in a row of chatter from outside, voices toppling and tumbling into his cage and conquering his brain once more. Marco had visions pattering into his head, and he felt the body heat of so many people melt with his own, taste what they had eaten yesterday or five minutes ago. Bread, chicken, the laughter of a young woman. Someone asking “Is that him?” and “I heard he’s close to being a Level 5”.

“Please.”

Now he was whimpering, begging for someone to just help, please just help – this damn noise was killing him. Marco felt bile rise from his stomach, the taste of too much food in his mouth, and – he smelt fire and death, rotting carcasses and the sweetness of cotton candy dangling between his nose and teeth. It was everywhere, and it was everything. His senses had gone insane.

“There, there. I got you.”

What in the world? Marco furrowed his brows again just when a string of drool dripped down his mouth, his body desperately trying to push out these wild sensations and keep him sane. A flock of swans he had seen as a kid cackled, and he felt the touch of his first lover, too rough to be nice, mixed with the feeling of his first football match –

“You’re Marco, yeah?”

He snapped out of his own head, and his body fell. Levi had stopped floating him. Marco felt surprisingly okay about that. Maybe his head would hit the floor just right, and he’d  be alright again. Maybe he’d die? Did freaks die, too?

The guy speaking to him was annoyed now.

“Pull yourself together, man. I’m just trying to help you here, a’ight?”

Marco decided to take a last look before he was going to die. He at least wanted to find out who the hell was daring to say ‘pull yourself together’ to him right now.

Opening his eyes turned out to be the only good decision of the day, and Marco’s eyes widened because of a few things at once.

First, Marco didn’t crash down. In fact, he was (second) staring at the white ceiling again, all his bones in place and his head straight on. Also (third) there was a face hovering above him, shifting between a broad grin and furrowed brows

“You okay? Just fell down. Don’ worry, I’ll kick Levi’s ass for that later.”

The fourth thing was the absence of all noise, touch, smell or scent. And all that filled Marco’s view was a boy’s face. The guy had strange two-toned hair, blond on top and brown at the sides of his – was that an undercut? Marco had never seen one, but it didn’t look half bad. The boy smirked again, revealing white teeth and  – oh. He was lying in his arms.

“I – sorry.”

It was a reflex to apologize. The guy quirked a brow and shook his head, making an amused noise between snorting and chuckling. He had amber eyes. Marco’s heart pounded, and when did his blood start to rush so fast into his fingers?

That colour was really, really nice. Almost beautiful. Marco wanted to speak to him, but his mouth refused to say anything coherent and just blurted out:

“Where’s the noise? I, my head, it’s – it hurt so much. I saw everything, ‘twas blurred and so, unh – “

“It’s alright now,” the boy said., A warm hand brushed Marco’s forehead and pushed his hair away. Oh. He was quite fine with the palm resting against his temples, the scent of coffee and a bit of musk and cigarettes lingering around the stranger. At least Marco didn’t smell what he ate the last week anymore.

The stranger cocked his head and pulled Marco closer into his arms, rested a hand above his heart. This little flirt was moving fast – they didn’t even know each other. His brain was probably just in a state of apathetic panic and trying to distract him with stupid nonsense  to keep from going crazy. Was this boy even real?

“I’m Jean, by the way. Don’t speak, ‘kay? I’ll take care of that HS of you.”

Marco didn’t get to ask what the hell HS was before Jean shoved his shirt up and spread his fingers like wings over his heart. Before Marco could object or even get used to the soft shivers radiating into his skin, Jean smiled again. Marco’s breath hitched and stopped for a few long heartbeats.

“Don’t be afraid, I’ll take this shit away. Just relax.”

And Marco did.

Jean’s fingers dug into his chest. If Marco hadn’t been sure that he was going insane right now, he would’ve sworn that Jean’s fingertips melted into his skin. The surface curled, and Jean bit his lip. Marco could only watch how that stranger did something to him, and feel how his head emptied. All the memories of other people’s screams, the myriad of scents clogging his nose and making tears stream from his eyes, vanished with a touch of Jean’s fingers.

“Who… who are you?” Marco’s voice was a shy whisper when Jean drew his hand back and left his chest just as it was before, a faint blush on the slender cheeks beneath his amber eyes. Jean smiled – no, he smirked and carded a hand through Marco’s hair.

“Erwin didn’t have enough time to explain,” he said and pressed Marco closer to himself, arms wrapped around his waist and their noses almost touching. Marco gulped down the fat lump in his throat. If he wasn’t afraid to die any second, he would have jumped up and made an embarrassed apology for sitting so close to Jean.

But the strange thing was – the closer he snuggled to this man he’d never met, to a dangerous guy in a room full of white metal, after a morning of horror and being ripped from his life – the closer he stayed, the safer Marco felt in this new world he had been thrown into. He leaned into the touch, let the overbearing sensations bleed from his head and did what Erwin and Levi had wanted him to:

Marco listened.

Jean used the moment, his arms a hold for Marco to cling to, as he began to explain, voice rumbling in his chest.

“Your abilities can break out at any age. Today was just when your lucky day. Sorry, can’t do anything about it. Erwin and Levi found you after the police were called, I suppose. They lead the Academy and help us get along with the powers we have.”

Marco nodded a bit and nuzzled his nose into Jean’s shirt. He wondered why getting closer felt so good, but stopped when Jean brushed a thumb over his neck and went on telling the story. It was hard to concentrate when a wonderfully rough finger drew circles onto his skin.

“You’re what we call a HSR. That’s short for ‘Hyper-Sensitive and Radiating’. Stupid name, you tell me.” Jean laughed, and his hug tightened. “That means your senses are sharp as a knife, you see and hear anything. Same goes for smelling and shit. That’s why you suddenly had all your mem’ries comin’ back, and heard what people in your street were doing. Well, and radiating-”  

“Are you telling me that I’m, like, radioactive?” Marco nearly jumped up, only Jean’s iron grip to his neck holding him down. When Marco let go of Jean,  a new wave of sounds and blurry pictures crashed into his brain. The pain stung again, thousand of needles on his tongue and nose.

“Ah, sh-shit… s-sorry.” Marco sunk back into Jean’s lap, crawled closer and curled to his chest, cat-like. Jean didn’t seem surprised, just kept on holding him and continued his strange story-telling.

“Nope, doesn’t mean you’re radioactive. It means you radiate this shit into your surroundings. You let other people hear what you hear. Can be good or bad, I mean, you can have someone hear a symphony or let him see a war all day, blood ‘n’ all what sucks in the world. So we brought you here, for training and gettin’ used to it.”

Marco understood, but he still had questions burning on his tongue. His neck craned up, and he glanced at Jean from below. Hot tears had drawn new lines along his cheekbones, his eyes were a red-rimmed mess. He had to look horribly wasted.

“Can I go home? I mean, some day? Ever?”

To that, Jean didn’t reply right away, but leaned his head on the wall and stared up at the ceiling. Marco followed his glance, but didn’t find anything interesting. What was this guy up to? Was he supposed to stay here, train this – Marco still didn’t see it as a part of himself – this beast of an ability inside him, and then what? Live with the sensual sensations trying to break his mental walls each and every day? How could he fight that?

“With me, you could. For example.”

Marco furrowed his brows and shot Jean a confused glare. That guy didn’t talk clear at all. “What do you mean, with you? To your family or what?”

“Didn’t you notice?” And then Jean leaned forward and his thumb began to circle Marco’s neck again, dipped into the skin and all pain, all fear fell off of him again.

Marco sighed and relaxed, tension fleeing from his muscles as he sank into Jean and grabbed his shirt. “What… didn’t I notice?” he asked, Jean’s presence making him sleepy.

Jean just smiled again and blew over his forehead, mocking him a bit until Marco mumbled something and they both chuckled. “Stop that.” – “Nu-uh.” Then Jean went serious again, and the playful attitude made way for severity.

“It’s me, you know. I’m holding that shit away from you.”

Marco didn’t believe his tortured ears. Jean spoke softly, as if any word could hurt both of them.

“I’m a Morpher. You called us Benders in the earlier years. We manipulate certain kinds of matter, of substance.”

Jean went silent. Marco lifted himself up, fingers still flattened over Jean’s heart and clinging to his shirt. He found Jean’s eyes and stared, amber glowing in a weak flame, the pupils pitch-black and depthless.

They both knew what he’d ask.

“What… a-are you bending me?”

Jean closed his eyes.

“Yes. I’m a Level 5. I can bend any organic matter in the world. Right now I’m in your head and keeping your ability from running wild.”

The room went dark. Jean looked up, and his fingers cramped around Marco’s neck when the loudspeakers cracked and Erwin’s voice poured into the cell.

You’ll stay with him overnight. We’ll check on you two tomorrow morning. Someone will bring you food and blankets in a few. Jean, watch out for him.”

The voice was gone before Jean replied, a quiet and annoyed “yeah, fuck you too”. Marco hadn’t moved from his chest. His mind was calm at last, but the beat of his heart had gone unsteady and he felt a thick sob pile up in his throat. A prisoner, he was a prisoner now, and Jean should keep him under control until – until –

“Marco’s your name, right?”

“Wha – yeah.” Marco whimpered. When Jean pulled him close and whispered “’s okay, I’ll make it okay”, the fear and pain broke from his chest and spilled all over them like the rain pattering down when he was taken from his home. Marco cried. He gripped Jean’s shirt and shouted, for his mother and father and his little sister. He knew he wouldn’t go back, never again.

Jean stayed with him and laid a mist of warmth around his mind when the food and blankets were brought in. He wrapped Marco and himself up, and together they laid down. Jean held him close. He listened, nodded, made assuring sounds that were the only thing Marco could hear without going crazy. Just like that, Jean talked him through the night.

By morning, he knew that Jean was his same age and had left home when he was five.

How his house had fallen to ashes one morning, only the metal pieces and plastic of the kitchen and the computer left over. His own family vaporized because he had a nightmare about going to school next day and asking a girl.

The abilities had broken out and wiped away two more houses. Jean told Marco how he’d killed, and Marco wanted to slap him. He didn’t, though; he just pressed his snot-clogged nose and tear-wet face into Jean’s neck, where he was warm and smelt salty, a forest’s rain and morning dew.

 —————–

They slept like this, tangled into each other. Jean woke up when Marco did, when his mind roared again and the sweat ran down his back in long streaks, pooled at the curve of his tailbone and made him shiver. Then Jean held him and let those healing fingers roam his head or neck, and after a few horrifying seconds, the pain eased and extinguished like a dying fire.

None of them returned home.

But Jean taught Marco how to play a lullaby in both of their heads before they fell asleep.

After one month, Marco learned how to raise an orchestra of taste in Jean’s mouth when they kissed.

Two months, and his eyes showed Jean the depths of an ocean and how birds flew over the clouds, a golden sunset before their eyes and wild wind under their skin.

One year, and Marco’s touches sent shivers down Jean’s spine when they kissed again, and they slept in their own room with a tiny bed and a desk littered with Jean’s paintings and Marco’s CDs.

Marco still felt everything.

He still rose up crying from his sleep, and Jean had to kiss the tears away and swallow more of Marco’s scents, colours, songs. He did so, every time, and sometimes when Marco calmed down afterwards, they went out of the Academy and laid down in the grass, just in front of the barb wire fence where electricity twitched through and kept them inside.

They’d count the stars. Jean didn’t need to control Marco’s heart to make it beat faster. He only let soft shivers run up and down Marco’s spine, a soft wind caress his face, until Marco laughed and kissed him again. That was when their singularity became unimportant.

When Jean kissed all the breath out of him, and his lips were the only warmth Marco could stand, when Jean tasted of rain and dew, that was all that was in Marco’s world.

 

cracks of gold. | Part I

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SFW (fluff, tears.)

(( hate me all you want. I take death threats, wailing about what an awful person I am just throw anything you want at me.

for the wonderful fujoshichan69. this was so fun to write.

unbetad, uncorrected etc. ))

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The break between clients is exactly one average car ride and a cigarette long. That is, if nothing unexpected happens. And because my middle name is either “unforeseen” or “asshole”, it isn’t even a surprise anymore. So forget my well-deserved smoke.

“Mhm, a normal break-up. Nothing special… including transport of personal belongings.”

I fold the piece of paper in the middle and shove it back into my bag, mumbling about the task and its details that my boss scribbled down with his impossible scrawl. Titan Inc. Headquarters rest trainquilly in front of me, a large half-timbered house with a red roof, dangerously warped to the left and covered in poison ivy. As romantic as it looks, my job is anything but. Anything.

I clean the fuck-ups of other people.

It’s awesome most of the time, except for stressful evenings like today.

“Guess that puts the lid on my smoke.” I pocket the pack of cigarettes back and flip the lighter onto the passenger seat of my Audi. Then I lean back, rest both hands behind my head and close my eyes against the obnoxiously low hanging fireball on the horizon.

Usually I don’t get to my deserved dose of nicotine because the journeys across town to all those infelicitous humans eat up most of the breaks I put up to commute from A to B.

The job is a fucking gift from God, let me tell you. I get to drive around in a fancy official-looking car, wear a suit (paid by the company, yus!) all day and even food is included. Well, on the other hand –  my equipment consists of a stack of tissue boxes on my back seat along with a first aid kit next to it and, you’d be surprised, a can of pepper spray. You wouldn’t believe how aggressive broken hearts tend to get. Seems like everything in life has its ups and down. But hey, my ups are damn great and generously paid.

Today is lazy. Summer is almost over and I rarely get more than two jobs a day. Means less payment and more time I have to do at the customer hotline, answering to desperate wailing of “I just can’t do it, she’ll kill me” to emotionless snarls of “make it quick and take my stuff with you”. We do that as well – after consoling the broken souls we get up, shirts soaked in oceans of salt and icky snot, and then we pack up the customer’s stuff and vanish. We don’t come back.

Already guessed what I do? No, goddammit, not a prostitute! What’s wrong with you people these days? Fuck man.

No. I am a professional and my job is a delicate and fickle business. You wouldn’t survive a day in it and I’d bet my fucking handsome face on that.

Officially, my name is Jean, no last name needed, and I break up with people.

No polyamory either, holy shit. Did you smoke pot or what? Why do these questions even keep on coming? I might be pansexual but that doesn’t say anything about how many people I want to have in my arms, alright? Good.

Where was I – right. Breaking up. It’s what I do. Not simply walking up to houses, ringing the bell and surprising them with a “your boyfriend hates your cleaning fetish, stay the fuck away from him”. We do that as well. But most clients wish for us to carefully explain why and how and who’s the other guy/girl and he could have talked to me – no darling, it’s not about you, it was his/her decision – all this shit.

I’m so damn glad I’m single as can be.

We earn money depending on the customer’s satisfaction and the difficulty of our tasks (angry people attacking us costs the actual customer more and they gladly pay it, just so they don’t have to see their once-lovers again).

I am the best around here. I am the incarnation of satisfaction. A damn saint of break-ups, the hottest guy to ever make you cry over someone else. My customers recommend me to friends and co-workers and those come up and ask specifically for me. Wanna know how good I am?

Let’s just say – Eren Jaeger has tried to surpass me for months now and is still stuck with at least one black eye weekly plus several concussions because he just can’t stop from palavering to his clients (“you shouldn’t have – ” wrong Eren, just shut up and do you damn job). I’ve been down to one broken rib per year by the typical jealous overly-violent ex-con (“I bet you are the guy she’s fucking now!”). Yeah right, now you know why she broke up with you. Everyone learns sometime in life.

But hey, that broken rib bought me a new laptop and a one-week trip to Paris so I ain’t complaining. Also hospital bills included, heh.

I shove myself off the car’s door with a deep groan and tilt my head to crack all joints back in place. Better get off before Eren sees me taking a break and comes running down to –

Speaking of the devil.

“Kirschstein!” it bellows behind me and Jaeger shoves his ugly pancake face through the front entrance. He’s wearing one abomination of a suit, a dark moss green with a red tie (dude, it’s the 21st century, get some coaching on fashion), and his eyes have that malicious grin of “I’m-gonna-break-up-with-more-people-than-you-today”. I am not going to do this. His face is enough to shoot an alarming wave through my brain, all muscles tensed up. Fuck my break, it’s too hot for me to take any of our competitions today.

“Jaeger,” I say and flick my car keys around. I could just ram them into his eyes? Nah. He won’t shut up anyways.

“You won’t believe what I just – ,” and here we go. Eren looks pumped as an excited child, minus the frown on his forehead and both fists balled at his sides. Probably ready to talk me down about his newest great coup.

“Yeah listen, I bet it’s super-interesting how much you just dumped down the toilet,” I turn and rip my car’s door open, slip in smoothly and slam it shut quickly before Eren can jump inside with me. The automatic lock clicks in and I press a button to lower the window a bit. His face has the same tomato colour as the monsterous tie around his neck now and his mouth makes my favourite movement: it opens and closes like the reflection of a dumb fish.

“Gotta go, asshole. Instead of pestering the world with my awful fashion choices, I have actual work to do. And just so you know – ,” I grin and start the car, it roars loudly and then hums under me like a compliant boyfriend during wild sex, “I have my third job today.”

Eren’s shaking fists and angrily bouncing body look even better in my rear view mirror.

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The sun decides to remind myself of her ungrateful presence and figuratively slaps me with a friendly ray of fucking 1000 Watt brightness.

I fold down the blend above my head and rummage under the passenger’s seat for sunglasses. It’s getting late, sun nearly sinking below the horizon and the streets are clogged with people getting home from work. I find the glasses and fumble them onto my nose. My next client lives by the city college. I smirk when thinking about the mission I got. Oh, that poor man has something coming. Gay couple. Most likely the broken hearted will demand cuddles and I get to spend my evening staring at the clock, patting his sobbing head and finding myself smirking because with every passing second, more money will flow onto my bank account.

Fuck, okay, maybe I am a bit of a prostitute. A consoling-comforting-heyitwillbealright-prostitute. High-class and expensive, do you mind? Thank you.

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It’s a dorm.

His room’s number is 231, I checked twice on the paper Erwin got me. It’s nearly 8 pm now and finally that obnoxious heater of a sun is down the horizon and off my ass. I straighten my suit while I pass through the corridors, the rooms behind mint green doors are surprisingly quiet. It’s in the middle of the week and if I remember right – isn’t it exam’s phase? Yeah, something like that, Armin wailed about it yesterday when he came back from his only appointment and flopped down dead next to me.

“Students are so lazy. Partying in exam’s season, I can’t believe it!” he said and shook his blond head vigorously. “No wonder they get bad grades.” I just nodded because that’s when my mission for today came in and I couldn’t listen to his rambling.

Easy job today, I smirk and scratch my scalp while searching for the right room number. Oh, there it is. Just another mint coloured door, a small badge with “231” on eyes level. The door bell nameplate says “Bodt”. Nothing more. He lives alone? Hell yeah. My lips immediately curl upwards. No roommate, he ain’t got nobody to comfort him after the bomb I’m about to drop.

More money for me. Maybe I’ll take another trip to Paris. And don’t trot out with “you are only doing this for money” or “milking poor people dry” (pun intended). Because yes. Yes I am. Supply and demand we call it, do you speak it?

I knock two times, without hesitation. Last job for tonight, tomorrow’s my free day. Maybe I will even stay with the poor guy a little longer than usual. I feel so noble today. The person who will open the door any minute is goddamn lucky. I shift from one foot to the other, yawn and check the sheet of paper again. Yup, everything right – What the fuck?!

I almost get a heart attack when something crashes down behind the door. A low voice curses out loud, footsteps hurry towards me and a hasty “c-coming!” is thrown through the door. I quirk a brow. Seems as if the guy is already messed up enough. Doesn’t sound too healthy what he’s doing in there, breaking stuff and swashbuckling around. A familiar feeling of guilt stirs in my stomach. Nonsense, stop right there. I force the cold shiver down and pick at my bag’s strap, peel a few loose threads off.

It’s none of my business how he feels. This is a simple job, comfort excluded and not paid –

“I’m so sorry, I was just – ,” it chirps happily from inside. What the –

The door opens.

Fuck.

He’s an enigmatic kind of gorgeous.

He’s young and smiles. He smiles brightly and even I can see, as a stranger, that he’s doing it often and with honest cheer. His eyes are dark seas and reflect the dim corridor’s lighting, blink back at me with a fucking golden glow around his pupils. What even – his face is all soft and gentleness from cheek to cheek and I may be wrong but is that cooking icing on his Cupid’s bow? Shit.

He bakes. He motherfucking bakes.

“Uhm. Hi?” says the guy and tilts his head like a lost puppy. I attempt to say something but somehow an invisible force of “cute boy alert” froze me to the ground. I do nothing. I stare, he stares and we wait. Awkward.

The guy straightens his back and he looks down on me, and now an insecure cheep falls from his lips, confused, and he still manages to  beam like the motherfucking sun itself, and I notice a cloud of freckles scattered across his face from ear to ear.

Freckles. Spots of warmth. I am so damn cheesy but those little bastards frolic with his mouth and it’s goddamn adorable.

“Can I help you? If you are delivering something, I’m quite busy right now sooo…?”

Mr. Bodt better fucking stops smiling or my heart will pound right out of my chest. I swear to god, the world hates me. Who on earth would break up with such a – I can’t even call him anything else, with such a sweetie? I mentally add a few French curses to my angrily rioting inner self’s creative roars and gulp down the fat lump of oh-my-god in my throat.

And woohoo, my vocal cords accomplish a few meek noises that could be recognised as words even if only faintly.

“My name’s Jean and – I’m so sorry. Can I come inside? Your… it’s about your boyfriend.”

Look at me, apologizing to a customer. Apocalypse me right now.

“Oh god,” Freckles says and goes from excited scarlet cheeks to a pale face in the matter of seconds. His hands ball into fists, press to his heart and I want to hug him so badly. Freckles on his cheekbones stop jumping and the coolth in my stomach coils and hisses. My heart does another stupid hiccup in my chest and suddenly everything blurs when Freckles speaks, and his voice is a tiny little sob.

“Is he – is he hurt? Did something happen?”

“No, it isn’t – ” I try to calm him, my fingers begin to fidget awkwardly and I gesture around , helplessly flapping my arms like a young bird. “Uhm. Can I just come in? He isn’t dead or anything, he, he sent me.”

It’s silent for about thirty seconds. Mr. Bodt licks his lips and I have a second almost-heart attack when his pink tongue makes an appearance and wakes my dick with a heavy throb. No Jean, just no. We are not going to roll like this. Bodt’s upright posture has fallen down and could you please just wipe that stupid little speck of cookie icing off your lip –

“Uh-huh. C-come inside then. It’s just, I’m quite busy – ,” Freckles sniffles and bites his bottom lip, worries it and I blush like a love-sick highschooler.

“Okay.”

He lets me in and scratches his neck, closing the door behind me. “This way please.”

I quickly interrupt him and grab his shoulder, make him stop and again, we stare, he turns half-way in his path. His lips are now red. I hate myself because I will make him unhappy. I will wipe this wonderful smile off his stupid round face that belongs to baking hands and a chocolate coloured mop of hair – is everything about him sweets and warmth?

“The living room?,” I say, questioningly, he nods.

“Yes – who are you again, you said…?” Freckles says and does the adorable head-tilting again. I reply to him, couldn’t keep a secret from the gentle vision he has. Bodt guides me into his living room, a small thing that fits him and I’m thinking too much. Too much. Jean, stop. This is nothing but another mission for you. A job. Money. Paris. Suddenly I remember the taste of baguette and feel sick, like I could puke.

“I’m Jean. Your boyfriend sent me,” I repeat lamely. Great entrance for a conversation. Wait, this isn’t a goddamn date, I don’t have to impress anybody! My head spins. Freckles points to an old couch that makes up most of the room’s space. A small table in front of it, scattered with what looks like birthday presents and an enormous cake with frosting.

“It’s my birthday,” he says and suddenly I remember his name. My back sinks into the cushions. I blink, once and twice and suck in all the light in his face, there aren’t any shadows. Marco. His name is Marco.

“Your boyfriend wants to break up with you.” I breathe and can’t look him in the eye. I only shift around on the couch and hear his feet stop. It’s the worst sound in the world.

“I’m from Titan Inc. We – we do break-ups for other people.”

It’s his goddamn birthday.

“Y-you probably wonder why.” I try to explain as if I am the one leaving him. Marco doesn’t move. His eyes are stuck somewhere at my feet and I follow them. The cake? It looks good, layered with swirls of chocolate and vanilla cream on top. There’s his name on it, Marco. The letters are curled. I furrow my brows. Something’s off.

Marco folds down next to me. He’s moving so fast, comets himself into the couch’s plush and hugs his legs. Suddenly there’s nothing left of the darkness in his eyes, and the gold fades into a gleam of tears.

“Want cake? Came out well.”

He made it himself. I feel bile swashing up my throat and tense up, muscles in alarm, and my brain works insanely to process what he just said. He’s supposed to be sad, to – anything but this. This isn’t right. Can’t he just cry and scream, I’d let him punch me, just do something for fuck’s sake!

“Thank you.”

I can’t believe it. Marco’s chin quivers on top of his knees. He has both hands wrapped around his feet, thumbs resting on the instep. Red socks. His hair has a white spot near the temple, I think it’s flour. Dusted there from baking in the kitchen. I bet he sings while doing it. He thanks me and I just –

“Why the hell would you thank me? Fuck, you should call him and tell him to fuck off!”

I’m absolutely not supposed to say this. But Marco rolls his head to the right and presses his cheek into the outworn knee part of his jeans. Tears topple down his freckles and the scarlet is faint and dull.

“He was cheating,” Marco says, and he trembles, his fingers cramp around his tiny toes that peek through a hole in his silly red socks, and he sobs a little. It’s such a small noise.

“Asshole.” The word bursts out. I realize I’m holding fistfuls of my pants. My tie is long askew, sleeves of my suit wrinkled from fidgeting. Marco gulps, his throat bobs helplessly. I don’t know why but my stomach keels over and I turn sideways, don’t care if my shoes get on his silly couch that has an old ragged blanket on it.

His pupils dilate into eclipses.

“Do you… like cake?”

“Home-made? Hell yeah.”

A tender shyness flits his face and he emits a high whine, mixed with bell-ish laughter.

“‘mkay.”

“Marco?”

He lifts his head, red-rimmed eyes and messed up hair, curled into tinyness and a shell with golden cracks.

“Yes?”

I tug at the blanket and mumble “get up a bit”, and he does, and I wrap it around him. Marco tenses and his fingers do a jerk around his feet. Then he lets go and falls into my side, and I finally put my bag down from my shoulder. I don’t know why he made the cake by himself. He doesn’t know my last name or why I carry disappointment from one heart to another.

Marco bites his lips under my chin, his body shakes violently and he begins to cry softly.

“What did you wanna say?,” his mouth moves into my neck, teardrops falling down my collarbone. The blanket scratches in my hands, and I know why he won’t throw it away when I smell cinnamon and orange from it.

“Doesn’t matter.”

“Mhmm.” He hums and laughs a little and then he gets the hiccups from crying and I grip him tighter, press him into me, until we both cower under the blanket and he turns to touch the cake, and sucks the sweetness of his fingertips.

I catch a myriad of his tears, and he gives me some of his cake. We don’t sleep. We just watch the night get older and when the morning dawns he is hidden in my lap and under the blanket, and I have long gone taken off my suit’s jacket and thrown it somewhere, just anywhere.

mARCO KISSING JEANS SCARS

Boulevard of Scars

SFW (mentions of self-harm, emotional/psychological issues, scars)

Time taken: one hour

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“You want a hot chocolate as well?”

Jean doesn’t answer.

I stir the thick liquid with two spoons stuck in our favourite mugs. The chocolate steams and its warm scent spreads over to my bed where Jean hides under blankets, covering away from the rain pattering against the window. He’s shaking almost invisibly, only moving the blanket on top of him ever so slightly, body hunched and tiny. He hasn’t even touched the sandwiches I brought him an hour ago. I turn my eyes back to the chocolate and lift both spoons, check whether all crumbs are gone and dissolved. It looks good and so I take the package of cream and drizzle whipped cream on top.

It’s one of the worse nights, the ones where memories return and I don’t sleep. Instead we both stay awake and listen to thunder rolling, drink too much chocolate and kisskisskiss.

“Mhmn.”

He’s impatient and groans under the blankets, voice vibrating through the dense air. I hurry to his side, don’t want to make him even more anxious. The bed creaks under my weight. It’s a small thing, pressed into the wall of the dorm room we share. His bed is cold and without sheets. He hasn’t slept there in months.

“Move over for me?”

“‘Kay.”

He shuffles and his hair peeks out from under the blanket. The scalp is still spotted with dried blood from scratching. I bit my lip, worry it until he stops me with a cold thin hand wrapping around my chin. Jean sits up, eyes full of sadness and rain. He’s all thin and fragile and yet he never broke, not once. Not when those scars carved into his skin and made him bleed, not when he left home and not even when I made the mistake of accidentally ditching a date with him and he thought I’d left forever.

Those scars are the freshest and I apologize to them every night.

He lets me.

“Chocolate”, he says and his voice makes a jittery little jump, a cheerful acknowledgement of my poor cooking skills. I smile brightly, try to light him up with my happiness just like I always do. Whenever it works he boops my nose with his, and we giggle and are children again, the beds tangling between our legs until we are exhausted and tired from cuddling and whispering love.

I can’t make him smile. He takes the mug out of my hand and wraps his fingers around, careful and alert at all times. I have never seen him relaxed except for when he sleeps at last. My feet wriggle their way to his and my red and blue socks, knitted and warm, brush his ice cold toes. We sit pressed against each others, backs to the headboard, chocolate steaming into our red faces.

Minutes pass in a calm stream, wavering up and down with his quiet sipping and my delighted sighs. I’m finished at first and set the mug down. He’s still holding onto his. I turn my head and wrap both arms around his waist, feel the bones aching and his ribs holding the breath in.

“Will you lie down? Can I kiss them again?”

We need it both but I think it’s more important for me. I never promised to heal him and he never claimed me to.

“Mhm.”

Bad nights are silent with him. Usually he can talk a mile to a minute and when he does I drop everything and fall into the river of his voice and drown willingly. I take the mug out of his fingers and check the inside – it’s already empty. The smile on my lips falters, only a mere second. And then he’s pressed against me, fingers clawing in my hair full of desperation and he whispers “please” and “don’t go” into the crook of my neck he uses to cry.

I don’t reply because it never helps. Instead I pull him so close our breaths hitch and we gasp for air together, so close that my legs push his down and spread them, so close that he lets me in between and his bare neck stretches long and naked and I kiss him there, with all the gentleness and love that I have for my boyfriend.

Jean says my name when I slowly undress him. I smile constantly, I let him check my face every two seconds to see if I am still happy and content and not disgusted by him and his cursed body. He doesn’t understand when I explain that I love him. He can’t grasp the concept of it and I don’t think he ever will. Too much has happened, too much hurt licked fire into his skin and I can never take it away.

“I love you”, I say.

He tugs at the sweatshirt he stole from me and wears to sleep. It slides over his head, far too big and slobbering weirdly around his bony waist. I bend over him and lick along his neck, and he rewards me with one of those soft sighs that sing music in my ears. Jean sinks into the mattress, nails digging into my wrists and I let him lead. He guides me down to his stomach and I kiss him everywhere I’m allowed to.

The scars on his thighs are the deepest. He told me that he had nights where the razor almost vanished in him, the metal melting into thick red and the liquid poured down his pale legs in horrifying streams. I never want to see him that way again. I hum into his smooth skin and when he shudders and moans my name I smile again.

“I love you”, I repeat myself and he swallows. His fingers ruffle my hair and take a hold, and I turn my head to wrap my mouth over the chaos on his wrists. The red has long gone faded and was replaced with swollen tissues of a gleaming white. He hates himself everywhere and so I just have to love him enough for both of us.

I spend the whole night all over him. He rarely moves, only to guide me up to his mouth, to demand a shy kiss with closed lips and a warm pulse fluttering into my fingers on his neck. I have never slept with Jean. I have never seen him fully naked. He was angry and threw down a plate when he told me that he’d probably never – that we would never do it. I wanted to pick up the splinters and cut myself. I tried to tell him it’s okay and it took months, almost a year for him to accept.

“Are you okay?”, I ask into his ear for the sixth time this evening. My voice is heavy and I’m panting and he feels my arousal on his thigh, warm and hard. But we are okay.

“Yes”, he says and just turns so I can lay down by his side and we kiss again. My fingers follow the bumps on his spine, vertebrae by vertebrae until I’m at his tailbone and draw circles along the hem of his boxers. Jean can’t do many things. And yet when I first held him, and his scarred wrists pressed into my chest, when he curled into a tiny shell of sighs and a tenderly whispered “thank you” – it was okay.

I can’t stop loving him.

for the writing thing if you’re still doing it HOW ABOUT JEAN SCREWING MARCO SENSELESS. Or the other way around.

I write your wishes!

NSFW. Concubine!Marco and Prince!Jean Smut short story.

Time taken: one hour

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Marco is sprawled out on the bed, his pale thighs quiver from the traces of last night as he holds himself on both knees and those marks remind both of them that Jean owned him just hours ago.

The concubine’s body is engulfed in a thin garment, golden threads rowed with pearls tingling along his slender waist and wrists. Toes digging into the bed sheets he waits patiently, not a word on his warm lips. Jean remembers how they can grip him tight and suck him into a heaven of heat and slick sucking, stars exploding behind his squeezed shut eyelids while Marco moans his name and title.

The words ‘my prince’ are a flame erupting from his wide opened mouth when he says them, and whenever Jean hears them elsewhere it is a mere bad copy of what his lover mutters when they are alone and share one bed, a sweat-damp blanket over their exhausted bodies and loathsome kisses that should belong to wife and husband.

“My prince.”

A raw wave captures him and Jean is caught by him. The door slams shut, his palm sliding off the door knob that is now slick by his sweat. Marco elongates his neck and cranes it to him. The dark liner surrounds his chocolate eyes and his lips are curled into a smile of welcome home and whispered ‘I missed you’s.

“Those bastards kept me in the meeting far too long. I dreamt of you, my love.”

Jean rips the cape off his shoulders, the long robe he has to wear falls off his heavy body. Red doesn’t suit him and the bordeaux of his father won’t ever touch his skin. No man made for a king, he won’t ever be. All Jean is capable of is loving and he does it rough and with all heart that belongs to the concubine spread open on his bed.

Marco hums, a soft noise to encourage Jean, to make him go on and say those tender words. The man bows his back further down, the curve over his nude ass makes a gentle sway and his asscheeks shine wetly under the flickering candle’s light. He has prepared himself, Jean realizes and his cock squirms to be freed and sink into the heat of Marco that he owns for three years now.

“I want you.”

“Then come. Come here and I’ll kiss your fatigue away, Jean.”

His name falls off Marco’s lips and that is the world crumbling. Jean fumbles with his belt and throws it off to somewhere, nothing else matters anymore but how he climbs onto the bed, breathing patterns ragged and hair on his forehead damp by sweat, a dark maelstrom of lust shimmering in his dilated pupils.

“F-fuck, oh god – ”

“Yes, come on, I can – ah.”

Jean’s fingers claim every centimeter of the tanned skin, they find a way over skies full of freckles to the blades of Marco’s shoulders and the he kisses him everywhere. Mouth on warm shuddering body, a prince adoring his concubine with a love that lasts through everything his degree forces him to.

“You are mine. I love, Marco I…”

“It’s okay, I know. Please, just – I waited so long. Don’t – ”

“Yes, yes. Always, yes.”

Warm words between lovers. Jean leans over him and buries his face in Marco’s neck, susurrates sweet dumb words into the man’s ears whom he loves to death and beyond, his nails rake down the heaving back and their moans mix between silken sheets and the press of flesh on flesh.

“Want you. Marco. Marco, Marco.”

Jean bites his lip and his eyes snap open when Marco rolls his hips back, a wicked thing to do when a wet shaking hole brushes his aching cock, precum and expensive oil smearing over his concubine’s ass and to his tailbone.

And then Jean can’t, he just can’t hold back and not be inside the exquisite warmth that is all his and he thrusts inside with a rocking of his cock, stretches Marco open and into oblivion. The world comes to a halt and the room is just thick air and whimpered promises, moans, a plead for more and harder and god just love me until we collapse.

Jean obeys. He does anything Marco asks of him. He slams his hands against the headboard and watches Marco’s mouth form surprise and eyes fly open, drunken from lust when his cock maltreats the tight little hole with thrusts as brutal and rough as they need it, need each other – nothing else.

“J-jean, GOD. Please, I – f-fuck.”

“Marco. Marco.”

An insane song flows from his lips and Jean rolls his eyes, dips his head back when his nails draw a painting of red raked lines over Marco’s hips. The garment’s pearls tingle and stroke Marco’s heated skin, the freckles glow under Jean’s sloppy kisses when he falls down and bites his neck, leaves a mark that will turn blue and purple and possessive later.

Marco is loud when Jean fucks him into the sheets of his bed, and so his shaky voice cracks under the singsong of his lover’s name when he spills all over the bed. The concubine howls out and his head jerks back, a line of black hair pouring over his shoulders, the blade sticking out like wings and his back seizes.

Jean groans and bites deeper, tastes the salt of an ocean and home on Marco’s skin, and then his lover turns his head and the kiss open-mouthed and wildly and with tongues crashing and teeth clacking and Jean comes as well.

He’s silent when his seed fills his lover and Marco makes a muffled sigh of content under his moaning lips, bites Jean’s bottom lip softly and tugs until the orgasm is over and his hole milked him dry of lust and fatigue of the day.

They fall into the silk. None of them cares about the mess. Marco pulls the garment idly over his head and tosses it aside, pearls tingling quietly when they wobble over the wooden floor. Jean is right by his side, eyes a glow of pure amber and a love that makes Marco chuckle.

“Rough day? You were impatient.”

“Ya’, guess so”, Jean mutters and his eyes close against Marco’s forehead where he rests, sinks in and can forget. They blanket hides them away and Marco wriggles a leg between his, warmly chest to chest they lay and breathe.

“You need sleep, my prince.” Marco kisses his mouth and Jean returns, gently, with a tenderness that is unusual and was non-existent before the freckles of a certain concubine lightened up his life.

“Mhm. Stay, will you?”

“I won’t leave, Jean. Not ever.”

Funny how he still begs Marco to stay after all those years of loving him. But it feels right and when Marco strokes his cheek into dreams, Jean thinks that he smiles a bit. He must be happy.